Label: EMI Music Canada
Release Date: 1998
Producers: Paul Northfield; David Usher; Byron Wong (Trickster, Million)

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1. Trickster
   im the trickster burn so brightly
   i still hate you motherfuckers everyone
   wrapped in glory bound so tightly
   i still crave you even when im overcome

   saved by the light let me go on let me go bright
   to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright

   im the trickster burned so badly
   i still hate you motherfuckers everyone
   wore my sickness so politely
   i cant be your everything to everyone
   void of meaning swelled just slightly
   i still need you i still need you
   gone forever so concisely
   i still need you i still need you

   saved by the light let me go on let me go bright
   to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright

   and if you hate the world
   lets say ive been there
   and if you hate yourself
   well dont go changing
   all the times i used your body done my way cant say im sorry
   ripped the gloss off all your memories consequences so demanding
   bruised and beaten conscience bleeding sexually

   saved by the light let me go on let me go bright
   to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright

2. St. Lawrence River
   smells on the air see there its crushing the final impression
   the stains on the paper
   where words fell like water unearth all the changes that never did matter
   i think its beginning to freeze here

   caught in the rage and the fire of things all the brightness that burns me
   im fumbling through like a child in the dark when the nakedness comes
   i am shocked by the colour
   the glorious weight of your skin
   comes alive
   and i never thought wed make it back so soon
   might be nice but i knew youd be your own destroyer
   comes a time
   and i always thought id make it up to you

   here please forgive me how could we escape all the bitterness piled upon bitterness
   held in the face of the things that i dont understand intellectualize over and over
   this helplessness suits us its funny how quiet has slipped to our corners
   worn all our edges away you are watching breathing and baiting
   wanting and warming and cautiously waiting for some simple signal to creep cross your conscience
   uncover redemption and oh did i mention i carried you down to the st lawrence river
   the banks running dirty the waters beginning to freeze here
   solid by morning and ill freeze here
   winter by morning

   comes a lie
   and i never thought youd get me back so soon
   might be nice but its only if my own destroyer
   comes alive
   and i always knew id make it up to you

   i saw on your face such a curious grin as i let go your hand i was desperate to hold you again
   but youre sinking so deep in the water outsmarted myself and so easily gave up what i wanted
   solid by morning
   what i wanted
   winter by morning

   comes alive
   and i never thought youd make it up so soon
   might be nice but i always knew youre my destroyer
   comes a time
   and i always thought id make it up to you

   solid by morning
   and ill freeze here
   winter by morning

3. Jesus Was My Girl
   so he dies and im the joke
   a playdoh mask a million miles to go
   a suped up cock tease with a little twist
   when sex got ugly id insist
   hear youll empty all ive got
   fuckings over but i cant stop cumming
   still born dead or never born at all

   when jesus was my girl
   she told me
   when jesus was my girl

   its impossible for me
   harder even if i turn it over
   im not as pretty as i thought id be
   another symptom of my damn disease
   hear youve taken all i got
   fuckings over but i just keep cumming
   still born dead and never born at all

   when jesus was my girl
   she told me
   when jesus was my girl

   im not as pretty as i thought id be
   another symptom of my damn disease

4. Unholy, Dirty and Beautiful
   bound by the time on the clock
   bittersweet wondering the quiet transfusion
   hold tight nothing is complicated
   hold tight everythings fine
   confidence fell through the hole in your pocket
   the simples illogical so it be logic
   im caught in the diaries with all your complaining
   the curious scribblings of one who has everything

   leave me unholy and dirty and beautiful be
   unholy and dirty and beautiful

   cherish the lies that you bought
   charming delusions gone crack in the fire
   i know we might be mediocre
   i know nothings on fire
   confidence fell through the hole in your pocket
   the simples illogical so it be logic
   im caught in the diaries with all your complaining
   the curious scribblings of one who has everything

   leave me unholy and dirty and beautiful be
   unholy and dirty and beautiful

5. Forestfire
   what if i were you and you were me
   still cant see the forest fire beyond the trees
   now im standing in a field of green the colours burning far as i can see
   what do you see

   on my tongue the galaxies so small
   here ill drink it down and watch the world dissolve
   now im pouring through the universe and slipping through the endless stream of time
   what would you find

   and im flying floating on the wind again
   hoping it will drag me in
   cant you see im laughing laughing at the consequence
   laughing at this circumstance
   dont you know by now

   wave at all the faces theyve gone by
   faster that we live the more we die
   now im crashing through the open door and smiling
   in a most peculiar way
   what would you say

   and im falling faster than the waterfall
   opened up and after all
   cant you see im drowning right here in the open air
   wishing i could still go clear
   dont you know by now
   this is what we are

   flying floating on the wind again
   im wishing that youd drag me in
   cant you see im hoping wishing i could see myself
   wishing i was someone else
   but don’t you know by now
   don’t you know by now
   this is what we are

6. Babyskin Tattoo
   i am just the gray one im the darker side of you
   and theres a place you left inside me
   i hope it will amuse
   and see this sign carved in my arm
   just means ill hate you all forever
   its my babyskin tattoo
   its all the brand name that youve left

   its not so far from me to you

   circumcised myself because i knew youd be too busy
   and i saw the knife was dull
   just why the fuck do you think im crying
   styes caught in my eye
   and it swells me ’til im numbing
   but ill leave it here to punish you
   for leaving me so hard

   it’s not so far from me to you

   i deliver i will receive all the blessings from these things given
   tested longer held back only here

   i am just the gray one im the darker side of you
   and theres a space you left inside me
   i hope it will amuse
   and see this sign carved in my arm
   just means ill hate you all forever
   its my babyskin tattoo
   its all the brand name that youve left me

   and i beg borrow prostrate here under cover of everything made dear
   fearing only fearing only you

7. F Train
   traveled on the f train down
   the people press and crowd
   they start to fade like footprints worn away
   only stop and still im waiting
   a thousand faces look the same everyone
   a thousand different names
   they come on two by two
   people fade as people do
   came here of my own volition
   could be my decision
   could be
   we may still get by
   we may still get by

   wandered down on avenue a
   the coffee shops the sweet cache
   of thoughts and words and laughter gone
   never ending stream of what youve
   known so long and long ignored
   dont think so hard just smoke your cigarette
   and fade off into blue
   cause people fade as people always do

   consequence comes crashing in
   the scars and scrapes and scratches
   all the memories died so long ago
   time is up but still im waiting
   came here of my own volition
   could be my decision
   could be
   we may still get by
   we may still get by

8. Million
   borrowed in black you are mine
   dont make it easy dont make it hard
   dont make it so so simple again
   so so easy again
   bound like a child you are mine
   i cant defend you
   i wont complain
   i wont go so so quiet again
   go so gently again

   a million a million more
   for you to burn

   promised your mother id write
   id kill you quickly
   id keep you calm
   id make it all so simple again
   all so quiet
   here once the morning was bright
   but violence changes changes the light
   and now ive grown so empty again
   grown so empty again

   a million a million more
   for you to burn

   i can be cold dear i can be cold as you wanted
   living is hard here
   when im just the whore that you wanted me to be

   a million a million more
   for you to burn

9. Final Thoughts and the Last Day On Earth
   heaven haunts me kill for a cigarette
   heaven is all that i got
   my god left me without one word of warning
   my god left me waiting is all that i got

   ive seen your face before
   ive seen your anger crashing down
   all my life ive seen your babies
   crashing to the ground

   needle brought me comfort to keep me stable
   comfort paid for
   comfort is all that i got

   my god left me without one word of warning
   my god left me
   my god is all that i got

   ive seen your face before
   ive seen your anger crashing down
   all my life ive seen your anger
   crashing to the ground

   dont be afraid
   were all afraid

10. Mood Song
    im so dead and angry
    im justified to feel this way
    im broken in pieces
    the only game i would not play
    and you might be angry
    and you might have the last laugh say
    and you might be waiting
    well thats your choice so take it all the way
    i dont want you anymore
    your way
    i don’t want you anymore

    im broken in pieces
    and you might never know the way
    the kitchen is easy
    and i wont be the first to say
    and i might be over
    and i might be the last to awaken
    weakened and broken
    but i dont care if you said
    moments easier
    moments easier
    moments easier to find

    and you might be angry
    and you might be the last to take me
    you might be over
    but dont tell me that i cant be defined

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